I have now been in Thailand for over a month. It has truly been an incredible experience with ups and downs. I have fallen in love with the culture, the food, the people, each location, and this nation! I have been to Chaing Mai, Chaing Rai, Mae Sai, Lampang, and I am now in PangNga. What a journey from north to south. I have been working with lots of kids ministries, teaching English to all ages and even at a university. I have enjoyed street ministry where I was given the opportunity to distribute bibles and pray as I walk the streets of Thailand. My eyes were truly opened to their everyday lives in this time.
God has taught me so many things. The one thing that really has been hitting me hard lately is that I “can” live life and love what I am experiencing without God but it is so much better to experience it with Him. It was last week that I broke down realizing that I felt so alone and terrible for not taking time to share with Him my thoughts and emotions. I have walked through these past few locations without processing with Him. That is really tough for me to say as I would hate to admit that I do anything without God but I wasn’t giving Him my full attention. I was just trying to enjoy each moment as time is flying by! So I stopped, I stopped thinking, I stopped everything. I then cried out to God and said “I’m sorry. I don’t want to do this without you!” He’s been with me the whole time as He is non stop speaking to me, but I was not giving Him my full attention. I would listen, obey, but be done. But my heart is to talk back, to ask questions as I go, to process with Him! I’m learning and that’s okay. I asked God to give me a song. I’ve never heard of this song before. It was “Overflow” by Red Rocks Worship. In this song the singer is expressing exactly how I was feeling!! “Lord my cup is empty. Fill me with your spirit!” I would highly recommend you to listen to this song. It is the only way to explain what was happening in my heart.
My heart is to listen, to obey, to do what He would do, to say what He would say, to love how He would love, to be a missionary, to tell everyone about God, giving them the opportunity to know and be filled with His love! To experience what God has to offer!! It breaks my heart knowing that there are so many people in this world that deny God’s existent but what breaks my heart even more is the large number of people that don’t even know about God. That haven’t even had a chance to know about God. That there, is my mission. My mission is to reach those people and share the love of God. To share His word and who He is! I want everyone to know and have a full life knowing Him! ❤️
Thailand is truly a beautiful country and again, the culture… LOVE IT! I really don’t want to leave Thailand. I love being across the world being God’s hands and feet. I feel so much peace and comfort doing His work. It helps to have a support system which I couldn’t have asked for a better support system. Thank you family and friends for all your support! I wouldn’t be able to do this without you!!
I’ve been asking myself and God what the next journey is going to look like. To be honest, I haven’t gotten and answer from God as I know right now isn’t the time but I am anxious to know where He will send me next. What will I do. I have SO many options. Nursing school, YWAM, long term missions, short term missions, work at my Church, travel to my favorite country that I like to call home (Haiti)… I have so many options and all I want to do is make the choice that God wants me to make. So prayers that I will hear God so clearly about what I am to do next.
This journey to Thailand has been amazing and I will be home before I know it. I leave Thailand February 22nd and will arrive to America February 22nd. Yes I will live that day twice as I am 13 hours ahead of time. I will then be in Wisconsin for a few more days for debrief and I will graduate March 2nd. Then I plan to be home for a while. I am excited to see everyone again but Thailand will always be in my heart and I plan to come back some day.
I would say so much more about this trip but telling you everything in a blog post just won’t do justice to this experience God has blessed me with so you’ll just have to visit my in person when I get home to hear more. 😁
Love you all. Continued prayers would be much appreciated as I do have two more locations (including the one I am at) that won’t be the easiest. The last location, I will working with the communities in poverty. My heart will break and ache but God will give me strength to love as much as I can for as long as I can. ❤️
God Bless you all and see you in March! Enjoy these pictures 😍 Enjoy the crazy cave adventure video too 😶
By His Grace,
Kendra Michael ❤️
By His Grace 